Yoga Nidra ~ My Body Speaks

I recently had a private yoga Nidra session and discovered some very important information. My body has been trying to speak to me, but I haven’t slowed down enough to listen. For the first time in I don’t even know how long I allowed myself to stop. Not for the purpose of sleeping, but for the purpose of truly resting. And as I lay still, taking deep breaths, allowing myself to be fully in my body and quiet the chatter in my mind, my soul began to tell me things. Things I’ve known but refused to acknowledge. The first message that came through was that I already have all the solutions, I just need to utilize them. I know what I need to do; I need to actually do it.

My body told me it needed balance. Instead of doing and moving and creating and spinning literally faster than my human form can keep up, I need to make time for the things my soul is craving. Not just think about doing those things, like breathwork and yoga, but DO them. I am so focused on the end product, so consumed by my need to create and evolve, learn and explore, I forget that it’s ok to do things just for the sake of doing them. There does not always have to be a perfect ending. I can paint for the fun of it without worrying if it will be beautiful enough to show the world. I can write for the joy of it without questioning if it’s good enough to share. I can come back to myself, my own knowing, and trust that it is ok to stop and just BE in the moment. Not everything I do has to be about achieving a goal. I can exist without forcing. I must SLOW DOWN. Life is not a race. The destination is not the end goal. It’s the small steps that get you there, the beauty in the journey.

My body longs for grounding. When I’m out in nature I feel alive. Whether it’s relaxing on the beach with my toes in the sand, swimming in water, hiking through the forest and hugging a tree, or even just sitting outdoors in the evening and watching the fireflies, I NEED that connection to Mother Earth. I crave it. It brings me back into the here and now, back into my body, and gives my mind something to focus on so it’s not wandering off in my usual day-dreamy way.

Lastly, my body asked for clarity and direction. Direction does NOT have to be goal driven. It does not have to be about making money to pay off credit card debt. It does not have to be about taking care of my family and house. It does not have to be about any one particluar thing. Sometimes, yes, it is necessary to focus on the mundane tasks, that’s part of being human. But my greater vision is about love. It’s about joy. It’s about creating beauty through simple things that connect me to others and to myself. And if that makes no money? If I receive no accolades? If no one even notices? That’s ok. Because I am not here to be a viral sensation. I don’t even want that kind of life. I am here to make a difference, no matter how small. If my books and my art and my heart reach just one person and help them in some small way, that’s all that matters. And if I feel purpose and fulfillment while doing it? More the better.

I am making a time for what my body has asked from me. I’ve been doing qigong every day and it feels amazing. I did breathwork on Wednesday and my mind was actually silent. Each night I sit quietly and listen to what my soul wants me to know. Then write it down, allowing the words to flow through me, not worried about the end result, doing it just for myself. It feels wonderful. My body, my heart, and my soul are grateful.